Thoughts from the Graveyard Shift

January 11th, 2011 by Conor

I am getting used to nearly all of it. How could I possibly be used to this? I have even become used to seeing my brother with tubes and tape all over him. I am somehow used to the stitches and the odd way that they zig zag around his skull. There is one thing that constantly reminds me how real this all is… the sound of the respirator. Each time Danny exhales the respirator makes a faint weezing sound. It sounds like a cry for life. Danny and I both have pretty severe asthma and if it is acting up, our lungs make a sound that is nearly the same. That sound triggers a feeling of incredible discomfort. That is the only part of this that I will never get used to.

I have always been a bit of a night owl but this new schedule is another thing all together. The last two days I have gone to sleep at about 6:30 AM and slept till 3 PM. Sunset is my sunrise. I eat 3-5 times a day and am excited when I sleep more than 4 hours.

I wonder what the first thing Danny will say is. The other thing that I can’t help but wondering is how Danny is going to feel when he wakes up from all this. All 3,000 people that have been visiting this website are going to be so happy, yet, the journey will only be beginning for Danny. I can’t imagine waking up to hear the news of what happened to me and that weeks have passed while I was sleeping.

Dad just showed up for the morning shift. He is starting to cramp our style here a little on the graveyard shift! Just Kidding dad, just thought it would be funny to not tell you this in person but instead write it and have you read it once we are gone. Everything is fine with the crossover, don’t over analyze this! It was a joke.

I LOVE my friends and family! You are all amazing. I still can’t get over the overwhelming support from everyone.

I LOVE you Danny. Pull through this one dood. You got it!


3 Responses to “Thoughts from the Graveyard Shift”

  1. KC Root Says:

    You probably have zero recollection of me, but I want to John Fuller, and did a year at Kennett before transferring to Fryeburg. I heard your story through the grapevine, and wanted to tell you how unbelievably brave and wonderful you both are. I wish you and your family all the luck in the world, and hang in. My thoughts are with you, and please, please never hesitate to let me know if there is anything I can do…trite, I know, but I really do mean it.

    Hugs and more hugs,


  2. Jylian Says:

    Conor, You and danny and the family have been on my mind since the night mom told me what happened. She told me what happened right after she told me that i was an Aunt again. As i am so happy to meet my niece, danny has been on my mind from sun up to sun down wishing i could do something to help. I talked to Josh the other day and told him that i got a shirt and will wear it proud. He laughed when i told him that i think of you and danny as distant brothers…i could always count on either one of you to make fun of me! I will never forget the summer you came to TN and you actually looked at me as an individual and not just an annoying little sister and said “wow you have grown up!!!” I am praying and thinking non stop about you and danny. He WILL pull through this. Can’t wait to hear your guys laugh again…its unforgetable! If you are in the area or can make it i would love for you two to be at my wedding in May! Thoughts and Prayers….

    ~Love Jylian~

  3. Brenda Leavitt Says:

    I know your dad from being in North Conway…I am so, so very sorry to hear what you and your family are going through. Your words “From the Graveyard Shift” just tore at my heart. Your brother is so lucky to have you by his side–and from what I hear, he is a very special young man. Don’t lose faith. That is so very important, and as you continue to tire, it will be even more painful. But somehow, there will be a strength in you that you never thought you had. Life does not always go the way you planned–I know. . .unfortunately I have suffered the worst tragedy ever–the loss of a child! Whatever the PLAN is, your Danny is someone safe, even as he lay in the bed as you watch…hooked up the way you see him–Miracles do happen! Don’t give up hope…

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