January 7th, 2011 by Conor
Danny is lying down just 10 feet away from me yet I have never felt so far away from him. Each time I gaze up over the screen I hope he might just look over at me and tell me to give him back his sweatshirt. Until then, I will wear it proudly and anxiously await the opportunity to give it back to him.
It’s hard to imagine that I have somehow become used to seeing Danny like this. He has been in the ICU for three days now but it feels like it has been three years. It’s almost impossible to believe that my life is real right now.
I no longer reside in sunny Lake Tahoe, California. I have moved to the fifth floor of Benefis Hospital in Great Falls, Montana. I will be here until Danny tells me to leave.
Hearing the varied sounds that go with all the gadgets controlling his life is not something I will ever be totally comfortable with.
When I return to the snowboarding, I will have a helmet on, and will be “that guy” that tells my friends that they should have one on as well.
How in the world did this happen to MY brother?
Danny will now have wayyyyyy more badass scars than me, and he already got all the chicks.
It has been years since I have seen Danny with a shaved head. He looks way younger now.
I think that Iris, Paul, Mayo and Moss are headed back to Tahoe today. It sure has been amazing having them around. If you are lucky enough to know them or have them in your life then you already know what great people they are. Thanks you guys for being there for Danny, me and my family this week. I love you all.
I hope that Danny can somehow feel that I am in the room here with him.
Shift Change… Love you Danny.